Our Announcement Photo

I chose to not wait until the end of the first trimester to announce my pregnancy.

There were a lot of reasons. The primary one being that I have been very open about our journey through IVF. Why not let everyone know that it was successful?

I think the main reason why women wait is because of the fear of miscarriage. I approached that issue as: I am trying to be more open about infertility. I want women to know that I am with them in their struggles. If I did end up miscarrying my baby, I would be open about that too. It is so hard to grieve alone! I did not want that.

So we waited until we got our first little ultrasound pictures.

Made with a whole lot of love... and a little bit of science!!

First Ultrasound

Heard her little heart beat today at 5wks10!

It was a vaginal ultrasound which was how we could get such a clear sound. I cried my eyes out!! It was beyond words how amazing it was to hear that little thump-thump of a heartbeat.

SUCCESS!!

Wow, how can I even describe the day.

February 13th was our transfer day. It was such a spiritual day. In the week that passed, we prayed, we hoped, we dreamed, we wished.

Infertility and expectations are difficult to reconcile. Like, I want to be so excited and hopeful, but I don't want to get my hopes too high, because getting them smushed into the dirt is harder than anything you can imagine! Our failed transfer was devastating, and I was torn this time between wanting to dance with joy and hide and forget it happened.

I was scheduled for my blood test on Friday, February 22nd.

Buuuuut on Thursday night, I may have had a leftover pregnancy test from last year....

 

And that was a positive!!! I was overcome with shock!! It actually worked?? All our hard work and tears was actually worth something??

Sure enough, I got the call from our sweet doctor on the afternoon of Friday, and he confirmed it! I took a video to send to our parents, but it is pretty cringey! I shouted out "now way!" when he told me, and he responded with "uh, yes way!" And then gave very dire warnings to continue my butt shots until ten weeks. Can do! 

It definitely made the shots easier, knowing that it was actually TOWARD something!

We had an appointment scheduled for our first ultrasound for six weeks!!

Lots to say!

Now that my brain space is starting to feel a little more normal... I have a few posts to catch up on! This is why I'll never be a world-class "blogger" tbh. Oh well!